Life Little Revilations
I am a divorced male father 0f three and step Dad to two others. I am losing my relationship marriage life line life partner and the best GOD DAMN woman in the word. This woman saw me through jail while she was pregnant with our youngest son. She faxed court document mediated visitation with my other two children worked two jobs and took care of my step children she did all this with extreme nausea cause by pregnancy. She did it all with about question. Look my goal here is to point to the brightest shining angel in the cosmos and then tell you she out shines them. With all that being said I messed up big. Remember the best ally to your marriage is open honesty while the worst enemy is a secret. Oh brother did I keep a whopper of a secret. To my dearest and most beautiful woman and family I am sorry.
Before I continue let me tell you this does not involve drugs or addiction! I will discuss later about addiction because I have watch numerous relationships fall to pieces of that issue. We are going to discuss something far more basic. Secrets kill marriages. Here is mine.
I was place in jail in the Unite States for not paying child support. I lost a custody battle do to a series of lies and falsehoods created by my ex-wife. Over time of the battle and me finally losing the support bill compiled and I had no job to pay. My last trip court I was detained indefinitely until I was caught up on the bill. My ex deny every request for visitation and to date I have missed every birthday, christmas, easter, new year and any other holiday you can think of since 2005. While no of this is my secret I need you to understand the gravity of the secret. I let the jail still owing at least $14000 US in child support. I actually escaped custody. I was on a work release and I never returned. When the next court date came around a judgment was passed against me that would change me freedom until I a totally caught up. The judgment was put in place to keep me from leaving the US. Here is the secret while this was never placed into a documents the judge place a ban on me receiving any documentation that would allow me to leave the country. I was already outside the US. This secret has stressed me ever since. I could have spared myself some stress by sharing with my now soon to be lost angel.
Secrets cause stress and cause horrible changes in perception. You stop realizing what you are doing wrong or right (I am using these terms because you know what is right for you). You do stupid things because you feel the whole world might be after you. What if someone tells my secret. I can’t let anyone find out. I have told the world my secret in a desperate apology to my angel you I love so much. My advise to you is don’t keep secrets for your spouse when you do something wrong own it and get out in the air. Your spouse is there to help you stop being so stupid and let them. Change the hurtful behavior it is going to hurt you. Now for me I am a settle very happy with me person. I know who and what I am but I have lost my direction and my calm. For the past year or more I have had no composure and have been in attack mode. I want my life back I need my angel. I won’t ever have her until and fix my brokenness after this secret.
Thank you
Angry Dad USA
I would like to thank all those who have help me compose this last blog most of whom I don’t know there names. They were sent by the God I worship with message. Please God send me my precious Angel please give me her words so she understands I love her and I am sorry. Help me to speak her language just for a moment so I can truly and deeply apologize. Taken her in a prone and harmless way so only she has control. Take my tongue for me before I speak without understanding her. In this I pray and trust.
